One thing that struck me at all my interviews so far, is that I got treated as Christelle. No one there knew me before. They meet me for the first time as Christelle. Even if they know, or find out about my past, they still only know me how I am now. Every new person I meet now only get to know me how I am now. That makes me happy. However, it is very uncomfortable if I meet someone now and get introduced along the lines of: "this is Christelle. He works in ops". That normally gets followed by a very quizzical stare from the person who gets introduced to me, and by me wanting to strangle the person that does the introducing.

I know got to the point where I threaten the people doing this with legal action. This excuse of slipping up is running very thing anymore. I came to realize that these people is just doing it out of spite. Slipping up has nothing to do with it. I am very sorry for them, but I am not taking their so called slip ups anymore. They just got to get used to it and get over it.

Raven and me are still waiting for a date when we will be moving. This whole house buying exercise is very stressful and I really wish everything was done with already. I will sleep much easier when all is done and we are settled in our new house.

They say that you don’t know what you have until its gone! This week Raven had to go for an op and had to stay in hospital for a couple of days. I can’t even start to describe how much I missed her when she was not there. I have never felt so lonely and lost in my entire life. Makes you wonder, do you ever show enough love and appreciation to your loved ones while they are still around, or do you just take everything for granted?

While in hospital with Raven, one of the nurses approached me and asked me what my relationship with Raven is. The one thought we were sisters, but found it a bit strange that Raven has an obvious American accent and I am obviously South African. I then explained to them that we are not sisters and that we are in fact life partners. I was actually amazed how easily they accepted that and how comfortable they were with it. What I found even more amazing is that everyone there accepted me as a woman no questions asked.

I love Raven with all my heart, but one thing that I have felt very guilty about, is the fact that I don’t show her any affection when out in public. She has no problem with that, the affection in public. Me on the other hand, felt very uneasy about it. It has taken me quite a while to be comfortable with myself in public. Up to now however, I have been very cautious to attract any unnecessary attention to myself when out in public. I don’t mind being seen as a lesbian woman. What scared me is that, because it is so unusual, it might cause people to look at me closer than I care for. Raven has been very patient with me, but I think it is time for me to get over that fear now and just get on with my life and give Raven the love and affection that she deserves.

They say that you don’t know what you have until its gone! This week Raven had to go for an op and had to stay in hospital for a couple of days. I can’t even start to describe how much I missed her when she was not there. I have never felt so lonely and lost in my entire life. Makes you wonder, do you ever show enough love and appreciation to your loved ones while they are still around, or do you just take everything for granted?

While in hospital with Raven, one of the nurses approached me and asked me what my relationship with Raven is. The one thought we were sisters, but found it a bit strange that Raven has an obvious American accent and I am obviously South African. I then explained to them that we are not sisters and that we are in fact life partners. I was actually amazed how easily they accepted that and how comfortable they were with it. What I found even more amazing is that everyone there accepted me as a woman no questions asked.

I love Raven with all my heart, but one thing that I have felt very guilty about, is the fact that I don’t show her any affection when out in public. She has no problem with that, the affection in public. Me on the other hand, felt very uneasy about it. It has taken me quite a while to be comfortable with myself in public. Up to now however, I have been very cautious to attract any unnecessary attention to myself when out in public. I don’t mind being seen as a lesbian woman. What scared me is that, because it is so unusual, it might cause people to look at me closer than I care for. Raven has been very patient with me, but I think it is time for me to get over that fear now and just get on with my life and give Raven the love and affection that she deserves.

Sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if I knew 25 years ago what I know now. I am sure there is a lot of decisions that I would have taken differently. In the end, my life and situation would sure be a lot different than what it is now. Its not regrets about my life, just if you know things beforehand, you would have handled it better. One thing is for sure, I would have transitioned as soon as I could. In that, I probably would not have had my son and Raven and me would probably not have ended up together. Although , I think that point is up for discussion. Raven and me are soul mates and I believe that soul mates have ways and means of seeking each other out. If you were meant to be together, then I am sure there would be a way to be together. The circumstances might just be different. One thing I would most definitely do, is plan my financial future better. I am not talking looking after your retirement, I am talking about living now.

I would have made sure that from a young age, that I stop pretending to be someone and concentrated more on the person that I wanted to become. You know, that is one regret I have in my life. For so many years I pretended to be someone I am not. I tried so hard to be someone that other people wanted me to be, that I neglected myself. I should have concentrated more on me and what I want to achieve, and develop the person that I wanted to be. Ok, to a certain degree, I would probably not have been allowed to develop the way I wanted to. But in the end, I have no one to blame but myself. Had I been more forceful and try and show the people who I really was, things would have been different. Today, I can blame no one but myself. You are responsible for your own well being, and should look after yourself. I know its easier said than done, but in the end, that is what it comes down too. Ensure your own future and happiness. Do not rely on someone else to make it for you.

I am a member of various transgender groups, and one thing that keeps coming to the fore, is the lack of understanding of each other. There is always bickering with each other over silly little things that end up into huge arguments over nothing. It turns out that not only do we get judged by friends, family and the general public, we also get judged severely by each other within the transgender community. How can we expect to gain acceptance by family and the people who sees us everyday if we cant even be accepted by people who is suppose to understand what we are going through. I am not sure what is the cause of this. Sometimes I think it is just a total lack of genuine understanding, and sometimes I think it is just plain jealousy. I might be wrong, I am famous for that, but I don’t have a better understanding or explanation. I know there will always be some kind of friction in any family, but one should at least have some compassion and empathy for your fellow transgender friends.

Having said all this now, one must also realize that the world you live in is real and nasty. Transgender people tend to get very wrapped up in their own little world and forget sometimes that there is a whole other nasty world outside. We all fight for acceptance in that world. There are people that try very hard to educate and help people understand us a bit better, and that we also have some basic human rights. Unfortunately, every now and again along comes one individual that, in a single stupid move, can undo a lot of good that has been achieved. This person then claims that it is their right to act stupid and that people should understand that. I suppose they forgot to read the book "How to win friends and influence people". We are a very small group that fight for our rights. We want people to accept and respect who we are. We must remember, respect is earned.

I think the most difficult thing to do for someone in my situation, is to make peace with your situation and accept your fate. Sure you have been dealt a bad hand, but how you handle it is what defines you. It is not something that you will ever get away from. Whether you go for treatment or not, it will always be part of you, a shadow that follows you wherever you go. Some people choose to live in stealth, but will always have a fear that someone will reveal their past. So what is the best option? I don’t know. I just try and do what works for me. I sure don’t have the looks to pass 100% all the time so stealth is definitely out of the question for me. Most people I know, knows about my past in one way or another, either being told by me or by someone I know. It is not something I think I ever will get away from, so I am not even going to try. I read a while ago that someone said " By never forgetting where you came from, will stop you from going back there" I think that is very very true. I will probably for the rest of my life have some link to transgender people in one way or another. Again, it is by choice. If I can help someone who is in the same situation that I was in, I will do it with the greatest of pleasure. Nowadays there is a lot more information and support available to transgender people that there where say 5 or 10 years ago, but I still think it is not enough. If I can do my little part to help another, I feel I have achieved something. After all, I am one person that can understand what another transgender person feel or go through, as I have been there too. I can lend a helping hand or ear or shoulder. Still, it is not something that consumes my life. I still have my own life to live and try to find a balance between all. After all is said and done, I am very content with my life and the direction it is going in.

When I was young I dreamed about being this beautiful woman. Maybe even a model, with a body that makes everyone around me stare at my beauty. Guys falling over their own feet when I walk past admiring and wanting me. Unfortunately I waited too long in life so the above mentioned scenario will not be possible. It took me a while, but I made peace with it. Today I am a woman and I am happy and proud of what I have achieved thus far in my life. I will still strive to better myself and although I will never be a model type girl, I want to be the best woman that I can be. That is what my goal is. So no matter what who says, I made peace with who I am, and I am very happy with myself.

I basically had 1 day to rest before I played in our club championships. Now for this event I was very excited. This was the big one I practiced for this whole year. After the first day I was in the lead and getting very nervous. On the second day I once again played with my main competitor. She was playing much better golf than the first day, but I managed to keep up with her somehow. I was getting very tired towards the end, but somehow managed to keep it together enough. At the end of the day I was crowned Ladies Club Champion. A very satisfying result after a year of hard work. This however, has not came without a price.

Ever since I joined the golf club as a lady golfer, I was always afraid what others might say about my past. I was however assured by the President of the Ladies Golf Union that no discrimation will be allowed against me and the committee of the Ladies Section was well aware of my past. So was just about all the other ladies but until now, I have never experienced any problems from anyone.

After the golf on Sunday I found a letter on the notice board addressed to me. In the letter it was written that I have no place playing with the ladies and that I should rather play with the guys and show what I was made off. It was written that I was a thief for winning the Ladies Championship title. The letter was not signed. ( A very cowardly attack on me ).

At that stage I was so tired and exhausted after the stress of the past weeks competitions, I just broke out in tears. One of the ladies I play with saw me crying and demanded to know what was wrong. Raven showed her the letter. She was furious! She took it to the Ladies Vice Captain who said she will take it further and that the case will be investigated. News of this spreaded like wild fire. I have no idea who wrote the letter, but after I had time to think about it, it was quite a cowardly way to launch an attack on me. I felt extremely hurt and what was to be a wonderful celebration for me turned into a somber evening.

Most of the ladies congratulated me and said that they do not agree with what was said in the letter and that they where glad that I won. I received quite a few calls afterward congratulating me and also voices of support. I had to work very hard to win that trophy. If any of the other ladies only worked half as hard as I did, they would probably have beaten me. That is why I had to work twice as hard. The only advantage I had over the other ladies is that I was better prepared for the championship.

So after all the commotion I can now look back and despite the setback, I can now smile at the trophy in our display case. Now matter what anyone says , on the trophy will be my name and I am very proud of my achievement.

Some people have asked me why I enter such a high profile competition and risk unnecessary exposure. Well, it is difficult to explain. I don’t really mind the exposure as I have never hid from my past. It is not something I am ashamed of. It is part of the person I am today. I don’t do it either to show other women that I am better than them either. I merely enjoy the game of golf very much. The thrill of competition just makes the game so much more enjoyable and exciting. It also pushes me to improve and I like that. Whether I win or loose, I am out there to have fun. Yes, it is nice to win. Who would not like to win? But it is not the end all of everything if I don’t win. I just try to do my best. If I walk of the course and feel that I had a good game today, I am satisfied. It doesn’t matter if I won or not.

Sometimes you get to a point in your life where you think ... that is it, I cant take it anymore. Whether its due to personal problems or money problems or anything else. At that very point in time things look so dark. You think that it will never get better again.

After a good nights sleep, in the morning things dont look so bad anymore. Over the years I have been in that sittuation more often than I care for. Just when I think there is no solution, by some miracle there always is. No matter what my problems is, there always seem some solution for it. Sometimes you just have to sit down and think on it a little. Over the years I came to believe that whenever I have a problem in my life, it poses a challenge for me and I have to find the solution. So, if I want to achieve something, I set my mind on it and work towards achieving what I set out to get.

When I started to transition I thought that I would never be able to afford SRS. Once I put my mind to it to get it done, within a year I had the op, in Thailand of all places. Now, this year, I set 3 important goals for myself. 1st, I need to loose weight and get my body into better shape. Well, I have been at it for just over a month now and slowly start to so a little progress. That gives me hope and now I work even harder at it.

The 2nd goal I set for myself, is to get some facial surgery. Every morning I look at myself in the mirror and are not happy with what I see. This is going to be a tough challenge as it proves that it might even be more expensive that what my SRS was. Learning from my experience when I thought SRS was going to be impossible, I have hope that I might be able to achieve this. I gave myself until February next year to come up with a plan.

The 3rd goal is going hand in hand with the 2nd and the 2nd depends a lot on the 3rd. I need to get more financialy stable. I stress way too much for money for my liking, so.... like my 2nd goal .. I have given myself this year to get in a better possition.

So .. wish me success.

Firstly I shook my head in astonishment. Then I realised this guy has no clue what I am all about.Seeing he wasnt rude to me, I thought I would have a chat to him and explain a couple of things to him.

Firstly, I play golf cause I really love the game. There is not many things else that I love more, Raven being the exception :) . I only started playing shortly before I transitioned, so I basicaly have always played as a lady. I have a total lack of testosterone in my system, and the estrogen I am taking resulted in a huge power loss, so I have no physical advantage. I can hit the ball quite far and play better than most ladies at my club because I practise about 6-8 hours a week. I work very hard to improve my golf game and if I do have an advantage it comes through practise, not because I am trying to cheat.

The guy looked at me and I could see there was much confusion on his face. I directed him to my website and gave him some material to read. A couple of days later he ran into me again. He said to me " Christelle, I have to apologise for my ignorance". He now knows better and have a little better general knowledge. I have heard from a few other guys that this guy have set them straight about many misconceptions about me, and I dont know if it is my imagination or not, but I find that there is quite a few guys around who got a lot friendlier with me.

Seems we are making a step in the right direction.

Take Care and have a great week!

Saturday at the golf, our lady captain confirmed the dates for the club championships. The 11th and 12th of March. That gives me about 2 months to get myself ready. I hope to be at least competitive this year. Last year I didn’t do very well in the club champs and aim to improve my performance this year. One of the things I am working on is my overall fitness. This will sure help my golf, but is also a great benefit for myself in general. I am struggling to loose weight and hope all the extra exercises will help getting my body in much better shape. Although the scale doesn’t show it, I can already see an improvement. I also feel a whole lot better.

My main aim is to get my body in a nice shape for the end of the year. Why? Well, if all goes well, Raven and me will get re-married the end of the year when we can legally do so. I want to look my best when I wear that wedding dress. It was always my dream to get married in a nice wedding dress, and we plan to make that dream come true. There is sure a lot of hard work ahead, but in the end it will be so worth it. In May my endo should put me on maintenance level on my hormones. I am sure that will also help in getting my weight in check. At my current high levels of hormones it doesn’t make it any easier to loose weight.

Have a nice and fun week. Take care.

Sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if I knew 25 years ago what I know now. I am sure there is a lot of decisions that I would have taken differently. In the end, my life and situation would sure be a lot different than what it is now. Its not regrets about my life, just if you know things beforehand, you would have handled it better. One thing is for sure, I would have transitioned as soon as I could. In that, I probably would not have had my son and Raven and me would probably not have ended up together. Although , I think that point is up for discussion. Raven and me are soul mates and I believe that soul mates have ways and means of seeking each other out. If you were meant to be together, then I am sure there would be a way to be together. The circumstances might just be different. One thing I would most definitely do, is plan my financial future better. I am not talking looking after your retirement, I am talking about living now.

I would have made sure that from a young age, that I stop pretending to be someone and concentrated more on the person that I wanted to become. You know, that is one regret I have in my life. For so many years I pretended to be someone I am not. I tried so hard to be someone that other people wanted me to be, that I neglected myself. I should have concentrated more on me and what I want to achieve, and develop the person that I wanted to be. Ok, to a certain degree, I would probably not have been allowed to develop the way I wanted to. But in the end, I have no one to blame but myself. Had I been more forceful and try and show the people who I really was, things would have been different. Today, I can blame no one but myself. You are responsible for your own well being, and should look after yourself. I know its easier said than done, but in the end, that is what it comes down too. Ensure your own future and happiness. Do not rely on someone else to make it for you.

I am a member of various transgender groups, and one thing that keeps coming to the fore, is the lack of understanding of each other. There is always bickering with each other over silly little things that end up into huge arguments over nothing. It turns out that not only do we get judged by friends, family and the general public, we also get judged severely by each other within the transgender community. How can we expect to gain acceptance by family and the people who sees us everyday if we cant even be accepted by people who is suppose to understand what we are going through. I am not sure what is the cause of this. Sometimes I think it is just a total lack of genuine understanding, and sometimes I think it is just plain jealousy. I might be wrong, I am famous for that, but I don’t have a better understanding or explanation. I know there will always be some kind of friction in any family, but one should at least have some compassion and empathy for your fellow transgender friends.

Having said all this now, one must also realize that the world you live in is real and nasty. Transgender people tend to get very wrapped up in their own little world and forget sometimes that there is a whole other nasty world outside. We all fight for acceptance in that world. There are people that try very hard to educate and help people understand us a bit better, and that we also have some basic human rights. Unfortunately, every now and again along comes one individual that, in a single stupid move, can undo a lot of good that has been achieved. This person then claims that it is their right to act stupid and that people should understand that. I suppose they forgot to read the book "How to win friends and influence people". We are a very small group that fight for our rights. We want people to accept and respect who we are. We must remember, respect is earned.

I think the most difficult thing to do for someone in my situation, is to make peace with your situation and accept your fate. Sure you have been dealt a bad hand, but how you handle it is what defines you. It is not something that you will ever get away from. Whether you go for treatment or not, it will always be part of you, a shadow that follows you wherever you go. Some people choose to live in stealth, but will always have a fear that someone will reveal their past. So what is the best option? I don’t know. I just try and do what works for me. I sure don’t have the looks to pass 100% all the time so stealth is definitely out of the question for me. Most people I know, knows about my past in one way or another, either being told by me or by someone I know. It is not something I think I ever will get away from, so I am not even going to try. I read a while ago that someone said " By never forgetting where you came from, will stop you from going back there" I think that is very very true. I will probably for the rest of my life have some link to transgender people in one way or another. Again, it is by choice. If I can help someone who is in the same situation that I was in, I will do it with the greatest of pleasure. Nowadays there is a lot more information and support available to transgender people that there where say 5 or 10 years ago, but I still think it is not enough. If I can do my little part to help another, I feel I have achieved something. After all, I am one person that can understand what another transgender person feel or go through, as I have been there too. I can lend a helping hand or ear or shoulder. Still, it is not something that consumes my life. I still have my own life to live and try to find a balance between all. After all is said and done, I am very content with my life and the direction it is going in.

When I was young I dreamed about being this beautiful woman. Maybe even a model, with a body that makes everyone around me stare at my beauty. Guys falling over their own feet when I walk past admiring and wanting me. Unfortunately I waited too long in life so the above mentioned scenario will not be possible. It took me a while, but I made peace with it. Today I am a woman and I am happy and proud of what I have achieved thus far in my life. I will still strive to better myself and although I will never be a model type girl, I want to be the best woman that I can be. That is what my goal is. So no matter what who says, I made peace with who I am, and I am very happy with myself.

Firstly, the South African Ladies Amateur Championships was held in Pretoria. I entered this event with mixed emotions. I really looked forward to it, but was scared out of my wits how I was going to be accepted. Well, I had a very enjoyable tournament and met new acquaintances. Everybody was very friendly and after a few days everywhere I went there, was someone who asked how it was going and wishing you well. What a fantastic tournament and what a fantastic time I had. The golf course was quite a challenge and despite my nerves, I did quite well. I finished in 6th place in my division ( out of 54 entrants ) and made it to the quarter finals in the matchplay. I did so much better than I even dreamed about and was a very happy but a very tired lady after the event.

I basically had 1 day to rest before I played in our club championships. Now for this event I was very excited. This was the big one I practiced for this whole year. After the first day I was in the lead and getting very nervous. On the second day I once again played with my main competitor. She was playing much better golf than the first day, but I managed to keep up with her somehow. I was getting very tired towards the end, but somehow managed to keep it together enough. At the end of the day I was crowned Ladies Club Champion. A very satisfying result after a year of hard work. This however, has not came without a price.

Ever since I joined the golf club as a lady golfer, I was always afraid what others might say about my past. I was however assured by the President of the Ladies Golf Union that no discrimation will be allowed against me and the committee of the Ladies Section was well aware of my past. So was just about all the other ladies but until now, I have never experienced any problems from anyone.

After the golf on Sunday I found a letter on the notice board addressed to me. In the letter it was written that I have no place playing with the ladies and that I should rather play with the guys and show what I was made off. It was written that I was a thief for winning the Ladies Championship title. The letter was not signed. ( A very cowardly attack on me ).

At that stage I was so tired and exhausted after the stress of the past weeks competitions, I just broke out in tears. One of the ladies I play with saw me crying and demanded to know what was wrong. Raven showed her the letter. She was furious! She took it to the Ladies Vice Captain who said she will take it further and that the case will be investigated. News of this spreaded like wild fire. I have no idea who wrote the letter, but after I had time to think about it, it was quite a cowardly way to launch an attack on me. I felt extremely hurt and what was to be a wonderful celebration for me turned into a somber evening.

Most of the ladies congratulated me and said that they do not agree with what was said in the letter and that they where glad that I won. I received quite a few calls afterward congratulating me and also voices of support. I had to work very hard to win that trophy. If any of the other ladies only worked half as hard as I did, they would probably have beaten me. That is why I had to work twice as hard. The only advantage I had over the other ladies is that I was better prepared for the championship.

So after all the commotion I can now look back and despite the setback, I can now smile at the trophy in our display case. Now matter what anyone says , on the trophy will be my name and I am very proud of my achievement.

Some people have asked me why I enter such a high profile competition and risk unnecessary exposure. Well, it is difficult to explain. I don’t really mind the exposure as I have never hid from my past. It is not something I am ashamed of. It is part of the person I am today. I don’t do it either to show other women that I am better than them either. I merely enjoy the game of golf very much. The thrill of competition just makes the game so much more enjoyable and exciting. It also pushes me to improve and I like that. Whether I win or loose, I am out there to have fun. Yes, it is nice to win. Who would not like to win? But it is not the end all of everything if I don’t win. I just try to do my best. If I walk of the course and feel that I had a good game today, I am satisfied. It doesn’t matter if I won or not.

Sometimes you get to a point in your life where you think ... that is it, I cant take it anymore. Whether its due to personal problems or money problems or anything else. At that very point in time things look so dark. You think that it will never get better again.

After a good nights sleep, in the morning things dont look so bad anymore. Over the years I have been in that sittuation more often than I care for. Just when I think there is no solution, by some miracle there always is. No matter what my problems is, there always seem some solution for it. Sometimes you just have to sit down and think on it a little. Over the years I came to believe that whenever I have a problem in my life, it poses a challenge for me and I have to find the solution. So, if I want to achieve something, I set my mind on it and work towards achieving what I set out to get.

When I started to transition I thought that I would never be able to afford SRS. Once I put my mind to it to get it done, within a year I had the op, in Thailand of all places. Now, this year, I set 3 important goals for myself. 1st, I need to loose weight and get my body into better shape. Well, I have been at it for just over a month now and slowly start to so a little progress. That gives me hope and now I work even harder at it.

The 2nd goal I set for myself, is to get some facial surgery. Every morning I look at myself in the mirror and are not happy with what I see. This is going to be a tough challenge as it proves that it might even be more expensive that what my SRS was. Learning from my experience when I thought SRS was going to be impossible, I have hope that I might be able to achieve this. I gave myself until February next year to come up with a plan.

The 3rd goal is going hand in hand with the 2nd and the 2nd depends a lot on the 3rd. I need to get more financialy stable. I stress way too much for money for my liking, so.... like my 2nd goal .. I have given myself this year to get in a better possition.

So .. wish me success.

Firstly I shook my head in astonishment. Then I realised this guy has no clue what I am all about.Seeing he wasnt rude to me, I thought I would have a chat to him and explain a couple of things to him.

Firstly, I play golf cause I really love the game. There is not many things else that I love more, Raven being the exception :) . I only started playing shortly before I transitioned, so I basicaly have always played as a lady. I have a total lack of testosterone in my system, and the estrogen I am taking resulted in a huge power loss, so I have no physical advantage. I can hit the ball quite far and play better than most ladies at my club because I practise about 6-8 hours a week. I work very hard to improve my golf game and if I do have an advantage it comes through practise, not because I am trying to cheat.

The guy looked at me and I could see there was much confusion on his face. I directed him to my website and gave him some material to read. A couple of days later he ran into me again. He said to me " Christelle, I have to apologise for my ignorance". He now knows better and have a little better general knowledge. I have heard from a few other guys that this guy have set them straight about many misconceptions about me, and I dont know if it is my imagination or not, but I find that there is quite a few guys around who got a lot friendlier with me.

Seems we are making a step in the right direction.

Take Care and have a great week!

Saturday at the golf, our lady captain confirmed the dates for the club championships. The 11th and 12th of March. That gives me about 2 months to get myself ready. I hope to be at least competitive this year. Last year I didn’t do very well in the club champs and aim to improve my performance this year. One of the things I am working on is my overall fitness. This will sure help my golf, but is also a great benefit for myself in general. I am struggling to loose weight and hope all the extra exercises will help getting my body in much better shape. Although the scale doesn’t show it, I can already see an improvement. I also feel a whole lot better.

My main aim is to get my body in a nice shape for the end of the year. Why? Well, if all goes well, Raven and me will get re-married the end of the year when we can legally do so. I want to look my best when I wear that wedding dress. It was always my dream to get married in a nice wedding dress, and we plan to make that dream come true. There is sure a lot of hard work ahead, but in the end it will be so worth it. In May my endo should put me on maintenance level on my hormones. I am sure that will also help in getting my weight in check. At my current high levels of hormones it doesn’t make it any easier to loose weight.

Have a nice and fun week. Take care.